I wont be dead so easy without a fight..

After 1 month alot of things settled.Tried to help some friends into getting back with their besties and 1 failed and 1 pass.I guess tat is wat are besties for right.Small misunderstanding shouldnt cause friendships to end.I been thru that before and i know how it feels.Thats why me and my best friend stil are very good friends now.

I still remember vividly how we quarrel the last time bcos of a gal..
Lets summarize it.
I met this gal call A.Been very good friends with her and i intro her to him.Den they secretly kip quiet abt chatting with each other and meet without letting me know.Well he did not say he meet who but i know actually he didnt lie.But tat particular A kip hiding.I been smelling something wasnt right till one fine day.Actually being good with a gal doesnt mean im wooing her i got so many gal friends whom are quite good with me and i treat them quite well.It doesnt mean anything maybe to some ppl they might tink im wooing the gals..Well the incident happen this way.I jio A to go dinner and she rejected say she meeting someone else for dinner.Ok fine so i call my best friend and he said he going for steamboat at Jurong ask me if i wan to come along.Ok fine so went to meet him and saw A at there.Ok it was a awkward situation.One thing is why A cant say tat she meeting him for dinner need to hide wan meh.HELLO I intro u two how come u two go out need to hide leh??Since i was there i kept quiet thru out the whole session already feeling fucking gao wei so i made up a reason and left the place.I just really dun understand why...Went back home and he called to ask if i was ok.Alright since he made the initiative why not.Ok he told me he hide somethings and he admited but i did said tat these kinda things dun need to hide morever i was the one whom intro the both of them.He said if i wanted to woo her he will let go i say come on la im not wooing her the only thing i gao wei was why the two of u need to hide things from me.As POV of another person how would i think right.We know each other for how many years already this kinda thing need to hide?I dun tink there is a need to.Morever its just a gal.Everything just go blah blah blah and we just made up and said it was ok with me.Im fine with everything dun need to lie...As usual we did went out and the awkward situation was already over.And tat really make me glad tat things are clarified.A misunderstanding between two best friends shouldnt be made so complicated right.Problems can be solved if one were to let go of the ego inside the heart and talk it out...Till date we are still kinda good but in terms of working in the society seldom meet up maybe like 1 month 1 time or 2 weeks 1 time.Hes kinda busy with his job and gf and im kinda doing alot of things at 1 time.

Been sleeping alot nowadays.Not yet 10pm eyes already going halfway close.Maybe too much exercise.Been jogging Swimming and Exercising tremendously like 5 days a week only rest 2 days.I wan to see results..Maurice is releasing soon and hell yeah the 3 of us can get back tgt again.Awaiting for this day for kinda long and blame myself for not really writing alot of letters to him been busy with the outside world.How bad can i be?haha.

Im wondering abt some stuffs till now and i dun really have the answer yet.Some ppl character really cant change at all.Wan to say something dun wanna use the stupid dumass brain to tink abt ppl feelings before blurting it out.From 10 yrs ago till now its still the same old thing.I guess thats one's character i guess.And by tat it really turns me off.Maybe give me another few weeks to tink it thru..Kinda not in the mood for this...

Lost my hp for almost close to two months..Not many hp attract me at the moment.Been pondering Between HTC Aria and Iphone 4 but seriously i dun really support apple.And HTC Aria is still not yet out.Im in need of a hp and another 3 weeks my contract will be up and i will be able to get a new hp.Hopefully by den HTC Aria is out..Iphone 4 is kinda bulky and heavy with the dumb casing although its quite cool but using Micro Sim Card zzzz.For your info Micro Sim Card is a much smaller sim card and if u gonna change yr hp in future u gotta either buy the convertor to convert it to normal sim card or change yr sim card by buying a new one.Kinda troublesome right.Just imagine if your hp is totally out of batt and u wan to use the sim card to change to another hp but yet cannot cos of the stupid MiCro Sim Card which is not able to fit in other phone...

I got so much stuffs to tink abt and i damn hopefully wish i could get out of here as im more den ready to move on.I need more challenges rather den staying put here and getting the pathetic increment which im not suppose to get..After SO many years..I hope its time..

Dramatic

This situation is like the 2 K's drama many years back..
I tink i shall refrain from everything.

MIA at the moment no HP mai login Facebook and Msn liao!!BYEeeeeee

Uncontactable Perm Lost my HP

First time ever in my 31 yrs of life..Fucking lost my hp and didnt even have the memory of where i drop it..But i swear i didnt lose it in any clubs although we hop around few places.No way in Dragonfly either cos my friend still told me i reply him im drunk and si bei song ard 6am..Which i supposely i tink should be on the way home but im not driving..Fucking Poor HP!!Fucking CCB!...Everything gone..

I guess im not in the mood to do anything..And if i emo here some idiot call Apple will say eeeeeeee..Shit u Auntie Apple..Now i know where u like to chiong..CHIONG NTUC!!!hahahaha...

I will remain uncontactable for the time being maybe till when Maurice is out..Im fucking Sick and Tired of LIFE..MIA the best.Dun login Msn No Login Facebook No HP...

Let me sort out my thoughts and seriously i have nv been in this plight before until i met her..All thanks to CB LL!..她害你,你害我 那我去害谁!!!I rather dun tink dun talk dun msn dun even see her maybe i will get out of this miserable plight..心事谁人知...

1 word to describe please kill me...

Hear No Evil See No Evil Speak No Evil

My last post in facebook and tats it..Not gonna login anymore.
Dun wan to see anything at all...Facebook is damn evil..Evil to the max..Fuck Facebook...

Went drinking last nite and damn worst DJ i ever seen spin till the old techno sounds like shit to me..Hop around my cousin pub and White Bar drank two tower and actually it was quite fun last nite...

Fucking LL still dare to say how did i react to her sms..都是你惹的祸..CB!..I just feel like i kena 降头!I really dun wish to see her dun wish to link to her name or even hear about her..It will kill me..N Seriously this LL ccb dunno how to fucking 自动...CB say wat emo can emo tgt..Fuck!!!Emo King coming out u sure can emo with him but not nin beh..Puiz...

不要来害我!!我要快乐!!

Si Bui Eh ytd sms me say he lost in the jungle..Knn so big size still can lost in the jungle??Wat kinda reservist is tat??Play hide and seek ah..Dohz...
Kan Phua Sianz to the max..I need INCREMENT PCB!!!

Wake up Time.!!!

Im trying my best to wake up my idea..
Leave me alone for the time being..I will be back..
2 more months to go and Maurice Mok is out!!
My best brother is gonna be back..

I wanna cure myself...Time is the best medicine..
Can siam siam first..Later part den be friends bah..

Seriously having a bad headache..Need to relieve stresss..
Fucking many stuffs to do yet today is a Friday No Mood to DO ANYTHING AT ALL...

Why do everyone like to say FUCK MY LIFE!!

Sorry dun FUCK YR LIFE..Please CARRY ON and Live yr life to the max please..

Although many times human beings just feel like dying so can let go of everything.
But always rem when u die u are letting down yr family..
Stay Strong..Be Strong and FIGHT on..

I wan to sleep peacefully man..So i gotta siam siam siam..Tinking of her the more will make me go mad..And seriously dun wan to end up like Siao Ah Lam lolx..
Anyway nothing to do wat can i do but to wish time pass faster and quickly..So god damn tired of everything..

Hate my life..

Now i tink back i feel like being a failure to survive den to live this way of life..
I hate my life arghhhhh...
Hate myself for falling...

Puiz...

Dreams that never come true....

Been dreaming for the past few days of her..Damn..All sweet dreams thru out..But in reality it aint..

How come sweet dreams never come true..I rather i do not have any sweet dreams at all...Rather den having nitemares thou..

I miss her man..(-_-)

I guess i will just put in effort and see how it goes...