Emotionless

I ever wonder how the feeling is like to love again.
After 2 yrs plus of being single..I dunno wat is heartbeating anymore.
How it feels like to get heart sour and sweet again?
To be jealous once again..To love again to put in effort again.
Am i numb?I really dunno..I do hate being emo..Hate to be jealous.Hate to fall again.
Loving with sweetness is a very very good feeling but loving with a bitterness is really torturing...I dunno if this will work well..Do not wish or hope for more..I tink its to 随缘 much better..
Or maybe after all these its time to call it quits?
Freaking Tired maybe find a goal and strive for it?
And den die lonely lolx.
Arghhh dun wan to tink liao...